mouthmango

So as I'm sitting here trying to track down years old friends from a time in my life now long past, view their amazing artistic works again, and smile at all the joyous memories they hold my searches have taken me off this site as well. Back to the now not really used Photobucket (was still popular oh eight years or so ago LOL), back to the old sites that aren't deleted yet, and back through many years old emails. In particular I was searching for two specific people, and two specific pieces of art from probably seven years ago when I started this venture elsewhere. (PS if anyone knows where I can find someone who went by the name Pony, and did a photomanip/had a character named Ceres ((black mare, white mane and tail, used on a RPG)) and someone who went by the name Bruja, and did a photomanip/had a character names Leonidas ((dappled stallion, used on the same RPG)) I'd be amazingly thankful if you sent me their way! I really want to see those pieces of art once more if they still even exist, those two people and their characters are still some of my fondest memories of that time and as a very visual person seeing the images again will bring back a flood of tucked away happy memories that are but hazy for the most part recollections now.

However I'm getting side tracked here. It was in this crazy search of mine that I came across some old emails....and my old Photobucket account....things I had completely forgotten about in the many years that have now past.

OWCH. I forgot what type of person I was like at 13-15 XP. I'm utterly horrified to come across things that remind me of some of my needless to say less than savory actions back then. That wasn't really a good time in my life for me, lot of heavy shit going on but that is zero excuse and I damn well know it. I'm glad I've learned and grown from who I was then but the shame of some of my deeds horrifies me. So anyone from that time now past... (you might remember me as Indecision(particularly those that knew me during this time), Cloudy, Rainy, Windy, Mosseh, Fogged, Coconut, Andromeda....think that was all the things I once went by) I'm horrified and shamed by some of my actions of those days that I fear may have permanently torn your old friendship from me. I am horribly sorry for my actions of then, and yes I do realize I have zero right to forgiveness from you not to mention the other people on DA I owe apologies to (and yes I plan to track down those artists and apologize to them if I can find them). Heck if I knew what the people went by on here, if they are even still on here I'd track them down too. It may seem ridiculous to even mention this so very many years later but I know at the time I did not own up to my actions and truly ever apologize. So better late than never I sit here in horror at those deeds and wish to say I'm deeply sorry to all I may have hurt at that point, I'm distinctly not proud of who I was then and it offers me very little comfort to know I'm a far cry from that person now. I doubt any of you will even see this but at least I've finally done what I should have very long ago. And if I can manage to stumble across any of you in my continuing search for Bruja and Pony I plan to personally apologize to each of you. 

On a less humiliating note running across all these times past makes me want to try my hand at photo manipulation again. My past attempts well I am not even going to get into that, but now I want to try again and recreate some scenes that I hold so fondly in my memories. Not sure if I've gotten any better at it though LOL. I stopped trying quite some time ago and stuck with photography since. But this has stirred an old love of traditional arts that I'm now struggling to tamp back down. -cringes- Maybe it'll go a little better this time.

And apparently it seems I have a seven year old account here as well o.O. Really forgot about that one, and now I think I remember why I avoid doing manips. Had to leave that account behind after the cruelty of others. Ah hmmm maybe I should indeed stick to photography. People seem less vicious in this form of art. 

~Si

I find it hilarious how only after I go and create this new account and get it all nice and up and running I stumble on my old account! Sitting over here doing an email recovery (dang my memory LOL) and yahoo went and told me all my linked accounts with the email I was using. Lo and behold an email popped up that I didn't remember so signed in and went OOOOHHHHHHH! Well long story short I've regained my old account and now to debate.....move everything to my senior account or stick with this one. Ah decisions decisions. Of course I find the account I've spent the last three years trying to remember.....after creating  a new account LOL. Ah my memory is amusing sometimes. 

Ok this Lightroom thing? GRRRRRRR. I'm so utterly confused with it, even after watching about every tutorial I can find. GAH! Yes I do get the best light tweaks, and so on can be done through it but it's taking me 40 minutes easy per photo given my utter confusion. So far at least I've discovered focus stacking and HDR merging is an amazing tool as I have my camera set to take four rapid fire pictures at different exposures. Being able the mix the four creates a lovely picture that would be much harder to take alone. But overall it is still a love-hate relationship with this blasted program. It probably doesn't help I never used any editing/creating software before (solely a photographer) so I don't even have a helpful foundation to figure this out. Eventually I manage to work through all the photos I've taken in the past few days LOL. Some sunrise, animals, and waterfall pictures I hope to get uploaded sometime in the next week or two. Until then wish me luck, patience, and determination as I try and get this fancy program figured out lol.

~Si

itaXita's Art and 3500 Points Giveaway (CLOSED)---- EDIT 2 ----
Hey guys! Today is the 15th of June so the raffle is closed! Thank you all so much for participating I never thought so many people would participate, I'm so happy to see the response I got from you
My special thanks go to everyone who donated. It's very kind and generous of you to do this, and I truly appreciate your help! :iconloveloveplz:
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I gave some of the numbers in the last minute, so I'll wait until tommorrow to give the participants who forgot a few things some time to correct it. The raffle is closed for new entries though.
I was very careful with the numbers and I double checked everything, I also let you guys know once I assigned the numbers so you could check them out yourselves too, but if you haven't already, then this is a reminder for you to go and check them now Let me know if you notice that I made a mistake, and